My new ‘normal’ is about to begin…….

Yes cancer, it’s been tough and I’ve hated every minute, but I somehow found the strength to continue, to take each step, to fight and now I’ve been given a second chance at life and I’m truly grateful for that. You made me realise the reason I’ve been given this life and I promise you, I won’t take it for granted, I will do good things, I won’t look back in anger but I will live ‘in the moment’ and cherish each day….

So I got my CT scan results and was told I’m cancer free. I felt relieved and emotional! I now can finally focus on my physical recovery of chemo and feel well again!!! Yippee! 

 I also got my Groshong line removed – well it was pulled out, it didn’t hurt, just felt uncomfortable. Again feels great to get that removed! 

So what next? I know I’ve done everything I can (from a treatment perspective) to prevent cancer coming back. Cancer is a waiting game and I’ll still have regular checks over the next 5 years. Cancer can also be overwhelming at times like an emotional roller coaster. So what’s my plan, well that is:

  • To ‘live in the moment’ – I’m not going to worry about the what if’s. I’m fully aware this is a challenge in itself and I will get days when I feel like this, but hopefully mindfulness meditation will help. 
  • To continue to raise awareness of bowel cancer and research into finding a cure for cancer. I’ve signed my daughter and I plus close family and friends to race for life in the summer to raise lots of pennies to cancer research
  • To have fun! – I’m planning to go on lots of holiday’s this year with my family & days out and generally enjoy life. 

I’m finally at the top of my Mount Everest – gosh I never thought I would make it! I’m now looking forward (not backwards) to the climb down. I can’t control cancer but I can cherish everyday….

Here’s to living, loving life and having fun..  I like to finish on a quote and I think this one is my favourite…. I know life won’t be the same again, but I looking forward to living my new normal.

Deborah X 

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6 thoughts on “My new ‘normal’ is about to begin…….

  1. Deborah,

    Despite all the difficulties, uncertainties, you’ve battled your way to the top of Your Mount Everest.

    A True Warrior, with a ‘real’ understanding of life, that only an experience of this nature can bring. A really tough time, but with a great outcome, well done you! Am inspired and humbled _/\_

    http://www.thought-management.com/look-to-this-day-my-favorite-poem/

    Lovely to read your Wonderful Words, straight from your Joyful Heart.
    🙂

    H

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  2. Deborah, congratulations on getting there. About to start the same 12 week treatment and reading your blog has given me real confidence that I CAN do it. A huge thank you for that. Annie

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    1. Hi Annie thank you for your message. You can do it, it will be the toughest thing you ever do but I promise you there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sending good wishes your way, Deborah

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