Yes cancer, it’s been tough and I’ve hated every minute, but I somehow found the strength to continue, to take each step, to fight and now I’ve been given a second chance at life and I’m truly grateful for that. You made me realise the reason I’ve been given this life and I promise you, I won’t take it for granted, I will do good things, I won’t look back in anger but I will live ‘in the moment’ and cherish each day….
So I got my CT scan results and was told I’m cancer free. I felt relieved and emotional! I now can finally focus on my physical recovery of chemo and feel well again!!! Yippee!
I also got my Groshong line removed – well it was pulled out, it didn’t hurt, just felt uncomfortable. Again feels great to get that removed!
So what next? I know I’ve done everything I can (from a treatment perspective) to prevent cancer coming back. Cancer is a waiting game and I’ll still have regular checks over the next 5 years. Cancer can also be overwhelming at times like an emotional roller coaster. So what’s my plan, well that is:
- To ‘live in the moment’ – I’m not going to worry about the what if’s. I’m fully aware this is a challenge in itself and I will get days when I feel like this, but hopefully mindfulness meditation will help.
- To continue to raise awareness of bowel cancer and research into finding a cure for cancer. I’ve signed my daughter and I plus close family and friends to race for life in the summer to raise lots of pennies to cancer research.
- To have fun! – I’m planning to go on lots of holiday’s this year with my family & days out and generally enjoy life.
I’m finally at the top of my Mount Everest – gosh I never thought I would make it! I’m now looking forward (not backwards) to the climb down. I can’t control cancer but I can cherish everyday….