Chemotherapy done now let’s start living! 

 
Cycle 12 of Folfox chemotherapy finally arrived. At one point I never thought I’d get to the end of treatment on the basis of all the delays along the way. 

So how was cycle 12? Well it wasn’t straight forward (but then it never is with me!). On the day of my chemo they gave me a different 5FU pump. Usually I’m given a pump which resembles a baby’s bottle which infuses over 48 hours. However I was told that they had changed manufacturers and was given a pump which resembled a donut. Anyway very long story short the pump didn’t empty properly! Typical it had to be my last treatment!  That aside it’s done, I had the usual side effects but now I can finally focus on physically recovering from 7 months of chemo. 

I’ve not quite reached the top of my Mount Everest – just one more pick to go – the all important CT scan and I’ll get my results in a few weeks. 

If I was to summarise my feelings into one word on what it’s like going through chemotherapy it would be:

 
No other word better describes it, in my opinion! Anyway, I thought I’d post a couple of pics of me on my first and final treatment….

Cycle 1….. Looking quite chipper (note to self – with lots of hair!) – having no concept of what the next 7 months would bring…

 

 Cycle 12….actually looking at this, I do look healthier, I’ve put more weight on – ok hair and eyebrows are really thin, but I kept it on my head and I’m so grateful for that! 

 

It’s funny I thought I would feel elated, jumping for joy at the end of treatment but to be honest I don’t. I’m not sure if that’s the fatigue talking or the pending scan and results. But that’s cancer for you – emotions are constantly changing. 

I will celebrate when my results arrive and my Groshong is out! My first plan is to sit in the spa at the gym ALL DAY! I haven’t been able to swim or use the spa in 10 months so I’m so looking forward to that!!!

 I found this quote which sums up my current thoughts……. 

Bring on those boring days……I’m ready!!

Deborah X 

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2 thoughts on “Chemotherapy done now let’s start living! 

  1. Hi Deborah,
    The analogy you quoted sums up just how I feel. I will never take another day for granted. Great that you’ve finished the folfox. The Oxy poxy is horrendous by all accounts although I’m only on 5FU for 30 weekly cycles. I’m stage 3 too but I’m 57. I’m an awful wimp with nausea. I had a lot of nausea when I was pregnant, (I’ve got 2 daughters) so I suspected the chemo would trigger it off again. I’m taking Ondasatron but I dread to think what I’d be like on folfox. I did ask for folfox but the Onc said it’s not available for my type of cancer (?) under the NICE guidelines. Postcode lottery !
    The pics are lovely and so is your hair, it doesn’t look thin at all. I hope you’ll feel better soon. You must feel like you’ve been put through the ringers with 12 cycles of folfox. I’m sending you a little verse my Irish friend sent me:

    An Old Irish Blessing

    May the road rise up to meet you.
    May the wind always be at your back.
    May the sun shine warm upon your face,
    and rains fall soft upon your fields.
    And until we meet again,
    May God hold you in the palm of His hand.

    Michela,
    Hugs, X

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